``At first, I started sleeping in another room because I wasn't being cared for at night, but before I knew it, it had become the norm for more than five years.'' Natsuki Mano, 53, full-time worker - housewife. - She lives with her husband, an office worker, and their two sons, who have been married for 28 years. - Natsuki says that by having a separate bedroom, she has completely lost the opportunity to spend the night. - ``For the past few years, I've been buying toys and surprisingly I've been looking forward to them (lol), but there are still moments when I feel lonely and empty, and real penises are the best. - I don't think I want to be my husband now.'' She admits that she loves cock and is intoxicated by the pleasure of having a real cock for the first time in a while.