My husband has a mistress. - I was jealous because I had thought that my role as a mother was over and that my husband and wife were done together, but even if I had a grudge against her, that doesn't mean she would come back. - I decided to go back to work, start practicing, and have fun. - But as I gave up on one thing and chose one thing more, I felt like I was losing my future... - As I turned 40 and thought about the unfinished business, I wanted to experience things that I didn't know yet as a woman, things that I was too embarrassed to ask anyone about.